Me and some friends were talking about relationships and stuff in the car. One of them asks me: "Jayce do you believe in second chances?" I told him no. And then I thought it was kinda funny that I don't. Why? Even if you're not asking why I will tell you why. We are talking about Jayce Kim Spiva. Mr. Hopeless Romantic. He believes that everyone has a soul mate that they are destined for and he will search for her and he finds her he will marry her. (One of my friends described me with pretty much those exact words in an essay back in freshman year of high school). However, being Mr. Mushy you think that I would be one of those people that would believe in second chances. Y'know at some point I think I did. I decided to give this one girl another shot since she's been going from bad relationship to another bad relationship and I thought I would be able to be the one to "fix" her (I'll write about "fixing girls" some other time). However, I ended up getting my heart broken again. This time I actually cried a bit. I didn't really cry it was more like a subconscious like cry. (The only scene that comes to mind is in Kingdom Hearts 2, when Sora is leaving Twilight Town for the very first time after meeting the Twilight Town gang and he just starts shedding random tears. Just like that.) I was just shedding random tears and I thought to myself "What the hell? Why am I crying?" Since that moment, I guess I just don't believe in second chances anymore.
Couple reasons why I brought this up (other than the fact that i think this is worth reading about). This topic was brought up yesterday and I'm considering giving a different girl another shot because it felt like her "rejection" wasn't really a rejection. I just needed to think out loud on a keyboard.
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