I Think Way Too Much...When I Actually Think

I think (haha "think") I need to think in more simple terms. I always tend to over complicate things. My thinking becomes like the stream of consciousness technique usually related with James Joyce except way more confusing and very contradicting itself. Why am I writing this nonsense at 8 in the morning? Because I am thinking WAY too much and not really DOING anything. I'm the type of person that likes to go into things as prepared as possible and with every possible scenario already played out in my head. But yknow, looking back, all the scenarios I come up with in my head are useless because things never go how I thought they would go. Even out of all the possible scenarios none of them actually occurred. Anyways WHAT am I thinking about? This totally awesome girl that trumps me in lots of different ways and I guess I'm suffering from an inferiority complex because I know that I am not where I'm supposed to be. I should be getting ready graduated from my undergraduate studies but I am not. My grades should be pretty good but they're not. My life should not be in shambles but it isn't. My friends wonder why I haven't made an actual move yet. Lemme ask you this: If you know that you aren't in the position you should be in, do you think you can proudly call yourself boyfriend/girlfriend of so-and-so? You think friends and family of so-and-so will accept you when you currently are not as appealing as you should be? Yes, there is the flipside in which so-and-so and friends and family won't care too much because they all have faith in you that you will succeed but really? I dunno if I would be comfortable in that situation, but I DO know that I don't wanna just give up. But that's just being selfish: not thinking about her feelings. OH that and friends little sister blabbed everything...which is a bad thing...I think. Like I said I think WAY too much. Instead of typing this stupid blog post I should be being more proactive and aggressive.